Finally friday!

1. One of my favorite things to do when I have free time is.. To SLEEP (:, blog & play with my puppy

2. When I have free time I tend to sleep. haha, read my bible (: pray and sleep a little more!

3. If I had an entire day completely to myself I would spend the day relaxing, getting stuff that needs to be done (maybe? :)), watching friends, the hills, and random tv shows.

4. Would you rather spend your free time alone or with people?personally i like to be alone or with one other person, i don't like big groups of people.

5. Most of my free time happens after school if i don't have to work, on wednesday when my parents go grocery shopping & my sister is at religion class, and saturdays (:

6. The best thing about free time is ITS FREE! I don't have to worry about anything.

7. The next time I have free time I should probably get some of that homework done,but instead, I'll probably procrastonat and sleep (:

Christmas Breaaaaak!

For break i went to theee beautiful crystal falls with my boyfriend! It is SO pretty there (:

He Also got a little baby beagle! (: Named midget.

 Midget & i!

                                                                David & Midget playing (:

                                                                      Sleepy Pie :)

His first ride (: He didn't like it to much...

Love himmmm <3

Ever Feel Weak?

I've been feeling very weak these past few days...
I'm not sure what it is..
Is it cause I'm not eating? Is it cause I'm trying to rebel & NOT eat?
Well whatever the reason is, i can't take it.

I was just reading my best friends blog and i was in tears. I'm so glad i have this blog to share my feelings 100%. It's my life saver.

But while i was reading it, i could tell she was struggling. Clearly. I knew she was and she needs help but she's not going to listen to me so whats the point. Right?

Well now i feel like a horrible friend. I should have spoke up before she got this bad.

Its all my fault.

Isn't god suppose to help those in need? :(

"He gives power to the weak, and strength to the powerless." -Isaiah 40:29

But i don't see that happening at all.

I feel like i can't bring up my own problems to my best friend..

I'm tired of crying

I'm tired of yelling

I'm tired of feeling sad

I'm tired of pretending

I'm tired of being alone

I'm tired of being angry

I'm tired of feeling crazy

I'm tired of feeling stuck

I'm tired of needing help

I'm tired of being different

I'm tired of feeling worthless

I'm tired of feeling empty inside

I'm tired of not being able to just let go

I'm tired of dreaming of a life i will never have.

WILW

I'm Loving...

My silly friends!

[Marrina & Leah]

My friends tattoo! SO pretty :)

[niki & her pecock]



The daycare i work at! We made this super cute Christmas tree!

They used glitter to decorate the bulbs [such a mess!] and made cinnamon sticks!

So when people walk by they can smell the cinnamon. YUM!

My wonderful boyfriend! DAVID :)

& Thats what i'm loving <3

My Weekend With Mema & Papa :)

I LOVE weekends when my parents are gone because then i get to spend time with my grandparents.. & they spoil my sister and I.

Last night we went to The Oak Room in downtown Minneapolis!

 So yummy :)

If you have never been there before. i suggest you go, & get the wild rice soup <3

:) Have a good week everyone

&&blessings <3



You're A God Who Has All Things, And Still You Want Me.

Moving on is not about not looking back. It’s taking a glance at yesterday, and seeing how much you’ve grown since then.
Maybe I have failed more often than I have succeeded but I can pick myself up, hold my head high and move forward.
Because I’m telling you that from this great fall, I’ve come a long way and I love my life now more than ever thought possible.

I have been listening to this song the whole week and its so inspiring to me. It has helped me get through this weeks ups and down <3
Listen..

Thank you go for being with me through these ups and down in my life and thank you for giving me the tools to do so. i love how you created music so that people could connect with you better. i love you! Amen <3

Birthday Weekend & Party :)

So, yesterday was my birthday! [officially 18 WHOOP WHOOP]

I had an amazing birthday!

My beautiful best friend Leah slept over Monday night, we woke up Tuesday and my mommy made us blueberry pancakes & yummy strawberries!



After i got home from school i got BEAUTIFUL flowers from my wonderful boyfriend David and my parents (:

Aren't they gorgeous! :)

Then it was time to get ready to go to Benihana's with my family, grandparents & Leah. If you have never been there before, i highly recommend it! Its very yummy.

 

After we went home for cake and presents!

I got SO spoiled this year...

[Kindle fire, GPS, coach purse, 4 spa days, membership to LA fitness, coupon book fro my sister like one free doing laundry, foot rub..it was adorable, & my best friend made me the CUTEST blankie ever :)]

I.AM.LOVED.

& Of course my beautiful birthday cake that Leah made Me!

Isn't it cute! It's a flower :)

Faithful Shepherd, feed me
In the pastures green;
Faithful Shepherd, lead me
Where Thy steps are seen.

Hold me fast and guide me
In the narrow way;
So, with Thee beside me,
I shall never stray.

Daily bring me nearer
To the heavenly shore;
May my faith grow clearer.
May I love Thee more!

Hallow every pleasure,
Every gift and pain;
Be Thyself my Treasure.
Though none else I gain.
Amen.



I have to thank my wonderful god for being so good to me even when my life took many turns for the devil & for being the only one that was ever truly faithful to me and my recovery. I love you. Amen.