Ever Feel Weak?

I've been feeling very weak these past few days...
I'm not sure what it is..
Is it cause I'm not eating? Is it cause I'm trying to rebel & NOT eat?
Well whatever the reason is, i can't take it.

I was just reading my best friends blog and i was in tears. I'm so glad i have this blog to share my feelings 100%. It's my life saver.

But while i was reading it, i could tell she was struggling. Clearly. I knew she was and she needs help but she's not going to listen to me so whats the point. Right?

Well now i feel like a horrible friend. I should have spoke up before she got this bad.

Its all my fault.

Isn't god suppose to help those in need? :(

"He gives power to the weak, and strength to the powerless." -Isaiah 40:29

But i don't see that happening at all.

I feel like i can't bring up my own problems to my best friend..

I'm tired of crying

I'm tired of yelling

I'm tired of feeling sad

I'm tired of pretending

I'm tired of being alone

I'm tired of being angry

I'm tired of feeling crazy

I'm tired of feeling stuck

I'm tired of needing help

I'm tired of being different

I'm tired of feeling worthless

I'm tired of feeling empty inside

I'm tired of not being able to just let go

I'm tired of dreaming of a life i will never have.

My Beautiful Best Friend is 18! (: [Leah]

 My beautiful best friend, Leah (:

 God i just love her (:

 macey & i made leah a princess cake!

pretty coool ey?

[Me, Macey, Leah]

 The girls

[whitney, rachel, me, leah, macey, emily, kendra]

 [kendra, whitney, rachel, me, leah, macey, emily]

 [whitney, emily, kendra, leah, me, macey, rachel]

 on our way to chino lation's <3

 red lipstick (:

[kendra and i]

 rachel is obsessed with this baby blue truck

 kendra felt left out so we took a new picture with her..foot?

 my beautiful 18 year old best friend!

classic kendra with the GIANT spoon (:

Having WAY to much fun with photo editor (: