Birthday Weekend & Party :)

So, yesterday was my birthday! [officially 18 WHOOP WHOOP]

I had an amazing birthday!

My beautiful best friend Leah slept over Monday night, we woke up Tuesday and my mommy made us blueberry pancakes & yummy strawberries!



After i got home from school i got BEAUTIFUL flowers from my wonderful boyfriend David and my parents (:

Aren't they gorgeous! :)

Then it was time to get ready to go to Benihana's with my family, grandparents & Leah. If you have never been there before, i highly recommend it! Its very yummy.

 

After we went home for cake and presents!

I got SO spoiled this year...

[Kindle fire, GPS, coach purse, 4 spa days, membership to LA fitness, coupon book fro my sister like one free doing laundry, foot rub..it was adorable, & my best friend made me the CUTEST blankie ever :)]

I.AM.LOVED.

& Of course my beautiful birthday cake that Leah made Me!

Isn't it cute! It's a flower :)

Faithful Shepherd, feed me
In the pastures green;
Faithful Shepherd, lead me
Where Thy steps are seen.

Hold me fast and guide me
In the narrow way;
So, with Thee beside me,
I shall never stray.

Daily bring me nearer
To the heavenly shore;
May my faith grow clearer.
May I love Thee more!

Hallow every pleasure,
Every gift and pain;
Be Thyself my Treasure.
Though none else I gain.
Amen.



I have to thank my wonderful god for being so good to me even when my life took many turns for the devil & for being the only one that was ever truly faithful to me and my recovery. I love you. Amen.

Love Is...

Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.



~Things I'm Loving~

 My awesome blackberry [except mine is marroon]

 This sparkly blue nail polish!

It is soo pretty on (:

 The book that i am currently reading!

It is very addicting!

 My awesome hot pink ipod!

FUNNIEST show of my life! its on wednesdays! But my dad rented them on netflix so i am watching them all!

 Of course i'm loving all of these beautiful fall leaves and colors!

 My boyfriend who loves me and cares about me <3

 A best friend that is always there for me

[You rock Leah]

 A wonderful grandma that answered her phone at 11 at night because i was crying

[LOVE YOU]

& a wonderful grandpa that always makes me feel special!

Teen Creed

Don't let your parents down..

They brought you UP.

Be h u m b l e enough to obey...

You may be giving orders someday.

Choose companions with care...

You become what they are.

Choose only a date...

Who would make a good mate.

Don't show off when your driving...

Drive with saftey and arrive.

Guard your thoughts...

What YOU think you are.

Be master of your habits...

Or they will master you.

Don't let the crowd pressure you...

Stand for something,

..Or you"ll fall for anything

Don't Quit

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,

When the road you're taking seems all uphill,

When you're feeling low and the stress is high...

and you want to smile but you have to sigh,

When worries are getting you down a bit,

By all means pray and don't you quit,

Success is failure turned inside out,

God's hidden gift in the clouds of doubt,

You never can tell how close you are,

It may be near when it seems so far,

So trust in the lord when you're hardest hit...

Its when things go wrong that you must not quit!

I Was made To Be Courageous

Whenever i'm really down with my eating disorder i start to think.. "wow god gave me this disorder..why god..why?" I honestly dont know why i think that way.. maybe its just me acting in the moment?
But i know that it was my choice to rely on what other poeple say about me to make me happy..
The only thing god gave me was the courage to get through it
&&
he promised me that he would be there for me the entire way and that he loves me for me,
not what other people say about me

guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long. (Psalm 25:5)

 Every.Single.Day
this is how i see my body.. & this is what i think
Some people asky.. "what made you think this way?" and "How can you be so cruel to your body that god gave you?"
Thats a really good question..
Its mostly just not being secure with who you are. & depending on what one person said about you..
Once your relationship with god weakens i feel that the devil almost distracts you telling you to destroy it
its an addiction.. like drugs
its not an easy fix
but then i hear..
"your relationship with god is good now so the eating disorder should go away right?"
well no.. i really wish it was that easy.
but each day i can feel god helping me get through breakfast.Lunch.Dinner
& each time it gets a little easier to eat

fear not, for I am with you;  be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you,  I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. (Isaiah 41:10)

The LORD is my strength and my song, and he has become my salvation; this is my God, and I will praise him, my father’s God, and I will exalt him. (Exodus 15:2)

I can do all things through him who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:13)

No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it. (1 Corinthians 10:13  )

But the Lord stood by me and strengthened me, so that through me the message might be fully proclaimed and all the Gentiles might hear it. So I was rescued from the lion’s mouth. (2 Timothy 4:17)

The LORD is my light and my salvation;    whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life;  of whom shall I be afraid? (Psalm 27:1) 

Day 11: A Picture of Something You Hate

I HATE hatred on god..

When i see stuff like this it makes me want to cry.. God love everyone, he created you! I dont understand how people can hate someone that created you..

...All i can do is pray for these people, seriously

Weekend Recap

Best.Weekend.Ever

...So friday night we went to adventures. Its in Wisconsin SOO yummy <3

after we rented some movie that had to do with racing.. it was boring, we both fell asleep.

Haha

 Saturday

we went up to hayward and went to this really pretty river front!

I love fall (: its soo gorgeous

 My love looking at the water :p

such a cutie pie!

 We were by ourselves so i haad to take a classic picture of us while trying to get the beautiful water in it..

i did pretty good ey?

 This is our own private pond next to my cabin!

 hahhhhaa cute (:

We went out to eat at this pace called 'Coops" and there was this HUGE fish there!

This Is The Stuff



I was in math class today listening to my ipod when this song came on. Im sure most of you have heard it but as i was listening i was almost laughing because we all get caugh up in tiny little things that we forget that god has blessed us with LIFE! That gift conqures everything and tells me that i shouldnt get upset with that slow lady in front of me driving as im already late for school! Or when i lose my phone in my bedroom.. Its not a big deal! (:

Bible Time (:

"this is my comfort in my afffliction, that your word has recieved me"

-psalm 119:50

"if anyone is in christ, he is a new creation the old has gone, the new has come!"

-2 corinthians 5:17

"when you go through deep waters,

i will be with you.

when you go through rivers of difficulty.

you will not drown.

when you walk through the fire of oppression.

you will not be burned up:

the flames will not consume you...

for i am the lord, your god

you are honored,

and i love you."

-isaiah 43:2-4

Day 4: A Picture of Your Favorite Night

My favorite night was prom night 2011 <3

withh my amazing boyfriend david (: