Empower 2012 & God's Presence!

This weekend was wonderful! Me and my mama went to the empower conference at edinbrook church on Saturday! It was so good to feel god's presence with me the whole time!

We started out the day leaving our house at 7:30 listening to 98.5 {Christian channel}

{Empower!}



We worshiped with god...

On the left is Amanda..{Our Worship Leader} and on the right is our other singer Ana (:

Then we had an awesome lunch :)

Cuties!

I learned SO much from this retreat on now i can strengthen my relationship with god. Yesterday my mama asked me to do the dishes.. My first thought was "oh my gosh NOO" but then i quickly remembered that every little chance i get alone is a chance for me to talk to god. So i plugged in my ipod and listened to christian music & talked to him about what i was going to do better in my life. After it was done i was wishing i had more dishes to do! :)

Also, before i go, my beautiful best friend is in the hospital. Prayers for her would be AWESOME! <3

Ever Feel Weak?

I've been feeling very weak these past few days...
I'm not sure what it is..
Is it cause I'm not eating? Is it cause I'm trying to rebel & NOT eat?
Well whatever the reason is, i can't take it.

I was just reading my best friends blog and i was in tears. I'm so glad i have this blog to share my feelings 100%. It's my life saver.

But while i was reading it, i could tell she was struggling. Clearly. I knew she was and she needs help but she's not going to listen to me so whats the point. Right?

Well now i feel like a horrible friend. I should have spoke up before she got this bad.

Its all my fault.

Isn't god suppose to help those in need? :(

"He gives power to the weak, and strength to the powerless." -Isaiah 40:29

But i don't see that happening at all.

I feel like i can't bring up my own problems to my best friend..

I'm tired of crying

I'm tired of yelling

I'm tired of feeling sad

I'm tired of pretending

I'm tired of being alone

I'm tired of being angry

I'm tired of feeling crazy

I'm tired of feeling stuck

I'm tired of needing help

I'm tired of being different

I'm tired of feeling worthless

I'm tired of feeling empty inside

I'm tired of not being able to just let go

I'm tired of dreaming of a life i will never have.

You're A God Who Has All Things, And Still You Want Me.

Moving on is not about not looking back. It’s taking a glance at yesterday, and seeing how much you’ve grown since then.
Maybe I have failed more often than I have succeeded but I can pick myself up, hold my head high and move forward.
Because I’m telling you that from this great fall, I’ve come a long way and I love my life now more than ever thought possible.

I have been listening to this song the whole week and its so inspiring to me. It has helped me get through this weeks ups and down <3
Listen..

Thank you go for being with me through these ups and down in my life and thank you for giving me the tools to do so. i love how you created music so that people could connect with you better. i love you! Amen <3

Day 24: A Picture of Something You Wish You Could Change

This is an easy one..

But i can't just pick ONE thing so i'm going to pick a couple



Fist one on the list- War

If everyone followed the 10 commandments, we would have a perfect world

Number 2

I was just watching "All-American Muslum" & it makes me SO sad to see people just like you and me be hated for believing in god.

Number 3

I wish i could change my "acceptance" with the past.

My Lesson For The Rest of My Life

Today in my holocaust & genocide studies class we had a REAL survivor of the holocaust. His name..

~Fred Baron~

He begain by tellin us htat when he was only 15 years old,Hitler came to power. THe night of kristallnacht (night of broken glass) was when he was first arrested by the nazi's. When he was let out, his sister and him fled to hungary & stayed with someone who was hiding jews. In march 1944 the nazi's deproted 750,000 jews from hungary to various camps. THey were put in cattle cars (packed with people) & it took 3 days to get to the camp. 3 DAYS! Without food or water..or sunlight :(

Throughout those 3 days babies were born in the cattle cars, people died & people went crazy. When the doors were opened and a burst of light came through, it took him a few hours to adjust to the light because it had been so long. He was taken to auschwitz & saw people being yelled at, black smoke stacks, and people being KILLED! Actually saw it.. How terrible.

Over 20,000 people were killed in auschwitz each day. Including his mother and father.

While the war was still going on, a british doctor found him walking on the side of the road & brought him home and nuresed him back to health. Sorta. He still had to go to the hospital to recover. But like all things in life, everything has a plan. At he hospital he met his future wife who was also a holocaust survior and they got married! He found his sister (now in florida) & he talks to high school groups about this. I wish i could be that brave.

At the end, at he was tearing up. (I started crying too), he said "I don't talk about this just to inform.. I don't need to be reminded of this horid tragety that happened to me, i do it so that your generation will be more accepting of people, because my generation didn't"

Literally broke.my.heart.

It made me realize even more, how rich & privlaged we truely are in america. SOme of us forget that & need to be reminded.

He is the deffenition of a true hero <3