No Self Esteem.. Ever

One of the first things i wrote about on my blog was basically my whole life story.

Its kind of overwhelming for me [or anyone for that matter] to read it.

But in there i talk about self esteem.. and my body image issues.

Ever since i was in 5th grade i remember feeling not pretty enough.

I was never the part of the "kewl girls" or anything.

Which really bothered me.

I went to a school that was very small.

All the moms knew each other and they all had there little cliques.

All the cool girls moms talked & all the not cool girls moms talked.

It was super annoying and i HATED it.

I would always pray to god to make me prettier & let me be friends with the cool girls.

I wanted so badly to fit in.

Being a girl is hard.. They are so judgemental, mean, cruel, and flat out bitches.

Excuse my language but I'm a little irritated right now.

Don't get me wrong, not all girls are mean. Obviously. But the ones i went to school with were.

Each year i would walk into the school and think "okay god is going to make this my year. I'm going to be one of the pretty girls"

But.. I never got that. Or so i thought..

I was reading the bible when i saw this passage.

But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.”

—1 Samuel 16:7

I think i have posted this bible verse on another one of my posts, but it is my favorite from the bible.

This verse is so powerful. I shouldn't care what other people think about me.

God LOVES me for me and that is all that matters.

To this day [like many other teenagers] i have issues with not being as pretty as someone else.

But then i look at this verse and think how silly i am and almost selfish that gods acceptance for me isn't enough? Whyy do we worry so much about other people?

What has our media done to us?

15 Things You Probably Never Knew Or Thought About

1. At least 5 people in the world love you so much they would die for you
2. At least 15 people in the world love you in some way
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because he/she wants to be just like you
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone even if he/she doesn't like you
5. Every night someone thinks about you before he/she goes to sleep
6. You mean the world to someone
7. If not for you, someone might not be living
8. You are special and unique
9. Someone that you don't know exists loves you
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look, you most likely turned your back on the world
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably sooner then later, you will get it
13. Always remember the compliments you received, forget the rude remarks
14. Always tell someone how you feel about him/her: You will feel better when they know
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let him/her know that there great

Senior Pictures Taken By My Beautiful Friend Brooookee (:

Wonderful Wednesday! & best friend day (:

So today me and my best friend Leah went to "the bead monkey" to make best friend braclets!

It was so much fun!

 These are the best friend braclets we decided to make!

I chose the green and she picked pink!

 Leah making her braclet!

 Our finshed product (:

 How presh!

I love My Best Friend :)

Day 20: A Picture of Somewhere You'd Love To Travel

I would love to travel to Lebanon!

Thats where my family is from & i just think its so beautiful! (:

Giuliana Rancic

So i'm sure you have all heard of Giuliana Rancic. [She is a host on Enews!]

Well she has been trying to get pregnant for a few years now and her body just isnt having it :/

So my mom was watching the Today Show this morning and she was on there!

She said that the last time they went in for fertility, the doctor said she needed a mamogram before anything..

She was fighing hik and brushing it off sahing "No im fine i dont need that"

Once the test results came back..

Breast Cancer

For people that don't know, if you are pregnant and have breast cancer, it can speed up the cancer...

...So it was a good thing she didn't get pregnant.

God wanted her to take care of the cancer before she could care for a child!

See.. Everything happens for a reason!

Our God is SO faithful <3

What is Wrong With Some People?

I think that we can all agree that freedom of speech is one of the great things about America. But where do we draw the line from speaking our mind and being down right hurtful and rude?

People are protesting outside of fallen soldiers funerals

[don't ask why..]

but they are making signs that say..

"GOD HATES AMERICA"

"THANK GOD FOR DEAD SOLDIERS"

"GOD HATES AMERICA"

...and lots more hurtful things that dont make sence to me..

For me this is more of a personal issue..

I have had grandpa's and uncle's fight for our country and they hold there head up PROUD.

If something like this ever happened at one of there funeral's 

well.. lets just say it wouldnt fly by me to well!

These protesters are irritating.

Get over it. Im not even sure why these people are so mean?

BUT

 I think these people need to get a real life & actually learn that god DOES love america..

and he even loves the protesters!

Our god is amazing and SO faithful!

I pray for these people.. & hopefully they will get on the right track

Day 19: A Picture of You When You Were Little

Not to brag but i was a cute child <3