Grandma Irene...

I knew my grandma wasn't doing very well (she was 94) and that her days were numbered. I got a call from my grandpa saying that grandma Irene was in a coma. I took it really hard knowing how close i was to my family down in Baltimore and her of course. I cried all day Saturday knowing that she wasn't going to make it. I didn't even color Easter eggs :( My dad kept saying "maybe she'll come out of it". But i knew the truth..

Sunday morning i was getting ready for church when my parents called my into the computer room and told me grandma Irene had passed away. I was furious with god like REALLY GOD you couldn't have waited one day. I was so mad, but my mom kept telling me "how special is it that she gets to go to heaven they same day we celebrate Jesus going to heaven." i thought about it and realized god knows best, and god is good and FAITHFUL! He knew exactly what he was doing, taking her out of her misery not knowing who she was, where she was, or who her family was. I guess i was just being selfish :( But tomorrow I'm flying down to Baltimore with my dad to spend time with my family and talk about how amazing, funny, caring, and god like she really was!

She's in heaven with her husband, her children, family, and now knows who she is & I'm so blessed she was in my life and that i have another angel watching over me  :)

Matthew 5:4 “Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted.”

Isaiah 57:2 “Those who walk uprightly enter into peace; they find rest as they lie in death.”

{June 2011} The last time i saw her <3



I'v Been Thinking...

Have you ever stepped out to pursue a dream in your heart and then became overwhelmed by it, wondering if you were equipped or qualified to pull it off? Most everyone has been there. In fact, many of the great men and women of the Bible struggled with the same issue.

For example, so often when people think of Moses, they remember him as the great spiritual giant who led the Israelites out of captivity, but did you know that Moses doubted himself? He didn’t feel equipped all the time. In fact, he was self-conscious because he had a stuttering problem. But God simply said to him, “Moses, what do you have in your hand?” In the next few moments, God showed Moses that it didn’t matter what he thought he needed; the God of the universe had already equipped him with everything he needed to accomplish his destiny.

Today, the same is true for you. God will place in your hand whatever you need in order to fulfill your purpose in this life. The challenge most people face is that they have the tendency to hold on to things that God never intended for them to hold on to. When your hands are full of other things, it’s difficult to embrace what God has for you.

People fill their hands with lots of good things; they take on noteworthy obligations and fill their arms with impressive accomplishments. But “good” can be the enemy of “best.” That’s why we have to constantly evaluate what’s in our hands and be willing to let go of some things so we can take hold of what God has for us.

Today, are you holding on to something that know you need to let go of in order to make room for what God is trying to do in your life? Is your schedule overloaded? Are you clinging to a relationship that you know is destructive? Are your thoughts consumed with a situation from your past? You might even be holding on to something good, but good things can also keep our hands too full to embrace God’s very best. I encourage you to take some time and evaluate what you have in your hands. Be willing to let go of anything that is keeping you from God’s best. Make room for what He has for you, knowing that He is ready to bless you and equip you to fulfill the destiny He has placed in your heart.

“The LORD said to [Moses], ‘What is that in your hand?’” (Exodus 4:2, NIV).

Day 22: A Picture of Something You Wish You Were Better At

I really wish i was better at trusting people..

...In this society it is SO hard to tell who your real friends are and who isn't

I mean of course i trust the lord, because he is 100% faithful, but there are not to many people i trust..