Ever Feel Weak?

I've been feeling very weak these past few days...
I'm not sure what it is..
Is it cause I'm not eating? Is it cause I'm trying to rebel & NOT eat?
Well whatever the reason is, i can't take it.

I was just reading my best friends blog and i was in tears. I'm so glad i have this blog to share my feelings 100%. It's my life saver.

But while i was reading it, i could tell she was struggling. Clearly. I knew she was and she needs help but she's not going to listen to me so whats the point. Right?

Well now i feel like a horrible friend. I should have spoke up before she got this bad.

Its all my fault.

Isn't god suppose to help those in need? :(

"He gives power to the weak, and strength to the powerless." -Isaiah 40:29

But i don't see that happening at all.

I feel like i can't bring up my own problems to my best friend..

I'm tired of crying

I'm tired of yelling

I'm tired of feeling sad

I'm tired of pretending

I'm tired of being alone

I'm tired of being angry

I'm tired of feeling crazy

I'm tired of feeling stuck

I'm tired of needing help

I'm tired of being different

I'm tired of feeling worthless

I'm tired of feeling empty inside

I'm tired of not being able to just let go

I'm tired of dreaming of a life i will never have.

Do You...

Do you ever feel like breaking down?

Do you ever feel out of place?

Like somehow you just don't belong.

& No one understands you.

Do you ever want to run away?

Do you lock yourself in your room?

With the radio turned up so loud

That no one hears you screaming.

Welcome To My Life 

Day 21: A Picture of Something You Wish You Could Forget

I'm not going to lie.. This question had me thinking. I was stumped.

I had a few things in mind...

 I wish i could forget all the mean and hurtful things girls have said to me..

 I wish i could forget certain people in my life...

But then again. All this stuff made me stronger & has made me who i am today.

Everything happens for a reason & if certain things never happened then i don't know where i would be.

My mind wants me to forget all this stuff..

...But my heart is saying that you are the strong person you are because of this!

What is Wrong With Some People?

I think that we can all agree that freedom of speech is one of the great things about America. But where do we draw the line from speaking our mind and being down right hurtful and rude?

People are protesting outside of fallen soldiers funerals

[don't ask why..]

but they are making signs that say..

"GOD HATES AMERICA"

"THANK GOD FOR DEAD SOLDIERS"

"GOD HATES AMERICA"

...and lots more hurtful things that dont make sence to me..

For me this is more of a personal issue..

I have had grandpa's and uncle's fight for our country and they hold there head up PROUD.

If something like this ever happened at one of there funeral's 

well.. lets just say it wouldnt fly by me to well!

These protesters are irritating.

Get over it. Im not even sure why these people are so mean?

BUT

 I think these people need to get a real life & actually learn that god DOES love america..

and he even loves the protesters!

Our god is amazing and SO faithful!

I pray for these people.. & hopefully they will get on the right track