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Wednesday, March 28, 2012

I'v Been Thinking...

Have you ever stepped out to pursue a dream in your heart and then became overwhelmed by it, wondering if you were equipped or qualified to pull it off? Most everyone has been there. In fact, many of the great men and women of the Bible struggled with the same issue.

For example, so often when people think of Moses, they remember him as the great spiritual giant who led the Israelites out of captivity, but did you know that Moses doubted himself? He didn’t feel equipped all the time. In fact, he was self-conscious because he had a stuttering problem. But God simply said to him, “Moses, what do you have in your hand?” In the next few moments, God showed Moses that it didn’t matter what he thought he needed; the God of the universe had already equipped him with everything he needed to accomplish his destiny.

Today, the same is true for you. God will place in your hand whatever you need in order to fulfill your purpose in this life. The challenge most people face is that they have the tendency to hold on to things that God never intended for them to hold on to. When your hands are full of other things, it’s difficult to embrace what God has for you.

People fill their hands with lots of good things; they take on noteworthy obligations and fill their arms with impressive accomplishments. But “good” can be the enemy of “best.” That’s why we have to constantly evaluate what’s in our hands and be willing to let go of some things so we can take hold of what God has for us.

Today, are you holding on to something that know you need to let go of in order to make room for what God is trying to do in your life? Is your schedule overloaded? Are you clinging to a relationship that you know is destructive? Are your thoughts consumed with a situation from your past? You might even be holding on to something good, but good things can also keep our hands too full to embrace God’s very best. I encourage you to take some time and evaluate what you have in your hands. Be willing to let go of anything that is keeping you from God’s best. Make room for what He has for you, knowing that He is ready to bless you and equip you to fulfill the destiny He has placed in your heart.

“The LORD said to [Moses], ‘What is that in your hand?’” (Exodus 4:2, NIV).

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Devotion Day 1: God Is Able

I started reading this awesome devotional book! I decided that i would blog about each day that i read it & i would post a song that reminds me of the devotion of the day.

Today talks about what god can do.. or better yet, what god CAN'T do. A lot of times in life we push god on the back burner and he fades in our life. We need to remember the description that apostle Paul gives us about how great our god is and about all the things he CAN do.

"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us." -Ephesians 3:20

The song below by Francesca Battistelli reminds me of how our god loves us SO much that he will do anything for us.

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your heart

Dear LORD: Please help me and remind me that your way is always the right way! Guide me and encourage me to trust in you 100%. Amen 

Monday, January 9, 2012

Empower 2012 & God's Presence!

This weekend was wonderful! Me and my mama went to the empower conference at edinbrook church on Saturday! It was so good to feel god's presence with me the whole time!

We started out the day leaving our house at 7:30 listening to 98.5 {Christian channel}

{Empower!}

We worshiped with god...

On the left is Amanda..{Our Worship Leader} and on the right is our other singer Ana (:

Then we had an awesome lunch :)


Cuties!

I learned SO much from this retreat on now i can strengthen my relationship with god. Yesterday my mama asked me to do the dishes.. My first thought was "oh my gosh NOO" but then i quickly remembered that every little chance i get alone is a chance for me to talk to god. So i plugged in my ipod and listened to christian music & talked to him about what i was going to do better in my life. After it was done i was wishing i had more dishes to do! :)

Also, before i go, my beautiful best friend is in the hospital. Prayers for her would be AWESOME! <3

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Ever Feel Weak?

I've been feeling very weak these past few days...
I'm not sure what it is..
Is it cause I'm not eating? Is it cause I'm trying to rebel & NOT eat?
Well whatever the reason is, i can't take it.

I was just reading my best friends blog and i was in tears. I'm so glad i have this blog to share my feelings 100%. It's my life saver.
But while i was reading it, i could tell she was struggling. Clearly. I knew she was and she needs help but she's not going to listen to me so whats the point. Right?
Well now i feel like a horrible friend. I should have spoke up before she got this bad.
Its all my fault.
Isn't god suppose to help those in need? :(

"He gives power to the weak, and strength to the powerless." -Isaiah 40:29

But i don't see that happening at all.
I feel like i can't bring up my own problems to my best friend..

I'm tired of crying
I'm tired of yelling
I'm tired of feeling sad
I'm tired of pretending
I'm tired of being alone
I'm tired of being angry
I'm tired of feeling crazy
I'm tired of feeling stuck
I'm tired of needing help
I'm tired of being different
I'm tired of feeling worthless
I'm tired of feeling empty inside
I'm tired of not being able to just let go
I'm tired of dreaming of a life i will never have.


Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Birthday Weekend & Party :)

So, yesterday was my birthday! [officially 18 WHOOP WHOOP]
I had an amazing birthday!
My beautiful best friend Leah slept over Monday night, we woke up Tuesday and my mommy made us blueberry pancakes & yummy strawberries!



After i got home from school i got BEAUTIFUL flowers from my wonderful boyfriend David and my parents (:
Aren't they gorgeous! :)

Then it was time to get ready to go to Benihana's with my family, grandparents & Leah. If you have never been there before, i highly recommend it! Its very yummy.

 
After we went home for cake and presents!
I got SO spoiled this year...
[Kindle fire, GPS, coach purse, 4 spa days, membership to LA fitness, coupon book fro my sister like one free doing laundry, foot rub..it was adorable, & my best friend made me the CUTEST blankie ever :)]
I.AM.LOVED.


& Of course my beautiful birthday cake that Leah made Me!


Isn't it cute! It's a flower :)

Faithful Shepherd, feed me
In the pastures green;
Faithful Shepherd, lead me
Where Thy steps are seen.

Hold me fast and guide me
In the narrow way;
So, with Thee beside me,
I shall never stray.

Daily bring me nearer
To the heavenly shore;
May my faith grow clearer.
May I love Thee more!

Hallow every pleasure,
Every gift and pain;
Be Thyself my Treasure.
Though none else I gain.
Amen.

I have to thank my wonderful god for being so good to me even when my life took many turns for the devil & for being the only one that was ever truly faithful to me and my recovery. I love you. Amen.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Empower 2012!

I am SO excited to go to this conference on January 7th!

 It's a conference for women [clearly stated in the title] at Edinbrook Church! They have such awesome things going on.. Like a reflection area, a prayer room, tea demo, nail painting station, massage therapist & of course connecting with our more than selfless and completely 100% faithful god!

 
Find out more info about this HERE 

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

My Wonderful Weekend !(:

My weekend was amazing! But sunday was by far the best..
My friend montana has had a very hard year.
Her family is johovah (sp?) witnesses. Last year she decided she wanted to be christian, so she left there church. Which is awesome! But the devistating at the same time because her family kicked her out of the house. SHe is now living with her boyfriend and is starting to believe in the great god <3
SHe asked me on friday if she could come to church with me.. So of course i said yes!
& she even bought a bible! (which by the way was the cutes bible ever) Me and her went to get me a cute new bible like hers
(the one below was the one i got)


Of course no bible is complete without bible tabs (:
yes i AM that cool.

I got to see her adorable kitty.. LUNA
what an adorable name :)

Just playin!


We saw some awesome license plates..
 & we picked out her wedding dress!
Doesn't she look beautiful!

The back of it (:

Friday, October 28, 2011

Love Is...


Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.


Thursday, October 27, 2011

My Favorite..

Soo, for all my "ED" friends out there that are struggling right now i just wanted to share the things that go me though my touch times (:

I just love finding these awesome quotes in the bible.

Don't EVER give up. God is with you the whole way to recovery.. (:






Friday, October 21, 2011

No Self Esteem.. Ever

One of the first things i wrote about on my blog was basically my whole life story.
Its kind of overwhelming for me [or anyone for that matter] to read it.
But in there i talk about self esteem.. and my body image issues.

Ever since i was in 5th grade i remember feeling not pretty enough.
I was never the part of the "kewl girls" or anything.
Which really bothered me.
I went to a school that was very small.
All the moms knew each other and they all had there little cliques.

All the cool girls moms talked & all the not cool girls moms talked.
It was super annoying and i HATED it.

I would always pray to god to make me prettier & let me be friends with the cool girls.
I wanted so badly to fit in.

Being a girl is hard.. They are so judgemental, mean, cruel, and flat out bitches.
Excuse my language but I'm a little irritated right now.
Don't get me wrong, not all girls are mean. Obviously. But the ones i went to school with were.

Each year i would walk into the school and think "okay god is going to make this my year. I'm going to be one of the pretty girls"

But.. I never got that. Or so i thought..

I was reading the bible when i saw this passage.

But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.”

—1 Samuel 16:7
I think i have posted this bible verse on another one of my posts, but it is my favorite from the bible.
This verse is so powerful. I shouldn't care what other people think about me.
God LOVES me for me and that is all that matters.

To this day [like many other teenagers] i have issues with not being as pretty as someone else.
But then i look at this verse and think how silly i am and almost selfish that gods acceptance for me isn't enough? Whyy do we worry so much about other people?
What has our media done to us?

Monday, October 17, 2011

Giuliana Rancic

So i'm sure you have all heard of Giuliana Rancic. [She is a host on Enews!]

Well she has been trying to get pregnant for a few years now and her body just isnt having it :/

So my mom was watching the Today Show this morning and she was on there!
She said that the last time they went in for fertility, the doctor said she needed a mamogram before anything..
She was fighing hik and brushing it off sahing "No im fine i dont need that"
Once the test results came back..

Breast Cancer

For people that don't know, if you are pregnant and have breast cancer, it can speed up the cancer...
...So it was a good thing she didn't get pregnant.

God wanted her to take care of the cancer before she could care for a child!
See.. Everything happens for a reason!

Our God is SO faithful <3


What is Wrong With Some People?




I think that we can all agree that freedom of speech is one of the great things about America. But where do we draw the line from speaking our mind and being down right hurtful and rude?

People are protesting outside of fallen soldiers funerals
[don't ask why..]
but they are making signs that say..

"GOD HATES AMERICA"
"THANK GOD FOR DEAD SOLDIERS"
"GOD HATES AMERICA"
...and lots more hurtful things that dont make sence to me..

For me this is more of a personal issue..
I have had grandpa's and uncle's fight for our country and they hold there head up PROUD.
If something like this ever happened at one of there funeral's 
well.. lets just say it wouldnt fly by me to well!

These protesters are irritating.
Get over it. Im not even sure why these people are so mean?
BUT
 I think these people need to get a real life & actually learn that god DOES love america..
and he even loves the protesters!
Our god is amazing and SO faithful!

I pray for these people.. & hopefully they will get on the right track

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Checklist For Life

So when i was in 8th grade my friend kelly gave me this book for my birthday!
Its a checklist for life [Clearly you can read the cover]
But i LOVED this book & every now and then when im having a rough time ill read something from it.

The first chapter in the book is.. "Mirror, Mirror"
In 8th grade [and alot of times now] i had such a horrible time with mean girls saying stuff.
THis chapter made me help accept myself a little more.
At the end of the chapter it has a "Things To Remember" page.. with lots of bible verses having to do with self acceptance.
My favorite of this page was..

"The lord said to samuel, do not look at his appearance or at his physical stature, because i have refused him. For the lord does not see as mans sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the lord looks at the heart" (1 Samuel 16:7)

I just love how it really makes you feel better when you read this!
The book included...
  • Things Fall Apart
  • Cliques
  • Gossip
  • Accepting Others
  • Pride
  • Success
  • Values
  •  Sex and Intimacy
  • Purpose
  • Instand Gratification
  • Handling Confusing
  • Handling Breakups
  • parents
  • Everyday Miracles
  • Loyalty
  • Overreacting
  • Rumors
  • Perfectionism
  • Need For Rest
  •  Dealing With Rejection
  • Exaggeration
  • Maintaining a Sence of Wonder
  • Role Models
  • Competition
  • Siblings
  • Consequences
  • Joy
  • Honesty
  • Making Ethical Decisions
  • Respect
  • Procrastination
  • Criticism
  • Sacrafice
  • Humility
  • Copperation
  • Complaining
  • Time
  • Obedience
  • Trials
  • Love
  • Prayer
  • Grades and Standards
  • Living With Regret
  • Wisdom
  • Jealousy and Envy
  • Temptation
  • Overcoming Obsticles
  • Cheerfulness
  • Handling Money
  • Believing in Yourself
  • Revenge
  • Making Excuses
  • Bearing Burdens
  • Choosing Your Battles
  • Peer Pressure
  • Planning For the Future
  • Choices
  • Humor and Laughter
  • Listening
  • Work
  • Spirituality
  • Silence and Solitude
  • Self Control
  • Kindness and Compassion
  • Maturity
This book REALLY helped me thoughout my middle school years and 9/10th grade years..
so im pretty sure you guys should go get it!! (:



Monday, October 10, 2011

Day 17: A Picture of Something That Has Made A Huge Impact On Your Life Recently






I recently read this book.. & i just love it (:
Its kind of life changing!

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Teen Creed

Don't let your parents down..
They brought you UP.

Be h u m b l e enough to obey...
You may be giving orders someday.

Choose companions with care...
You become what they are.

Choose only a date...
Who would make a good mate.

Don't show off when your driving...
Drive with saftey and arrive.

Guard your thoughts...
What YOU think you are.

Be master of your habits...
Or they will master you.

Don't let the crowd pressure you...
Stand for something,
..Or you"ll fall for anything

Don't Quit

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're taking seems all uphill,
When you're feeling low and the stress is high...
and you want to smile but you have to sigh,
When worries are getting you down a bit,
By all means pray and don't you quit,
Success is failure turned inside out,
God's hidden gift in the clouds of doubt,
You never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So trust in the lord when you're hardest hit...
Its when things go wrong that you must not quit!

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

I Was made To Be Courageous

Whenever i'm really down with my eating disorder i start to think.. "wow god gave me this disorder..why god..why?" I honestly dont know why i think that way.. maybe its just me acting in the moment?
But i know that it was my choice to rely on what other poeple say about me to make me happy..
The only thing god gave me was the courage to get through it
&&
he promised me that he would be there for me the entire way and that he loves me for me,
not what other people say about me

guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long. (Psalm 25:5)

 Every.Single.Day
this is how i see my body.. & this is what i think
Some people asky.. "what made you think this way?" and "How can you be so cruel to your body that god gave you?"
Thats a really good question..
Its mostly just not being secure with who you are. & depending on what one person said about you..
Once your relationship with god weakens i feel that the devil almost distracts you telling you to destroy it
its an addiction.. like drugs
its not an easy fix
but then i hear..
"your relationship with god is good now so the eating disorder should go away right?"
well no.. i really wish it was that easy.
but each day i can feel god helping me get through breakfast.Lunch.Dinner
& each time it gets a little easier to eat

fear not, for I am with you;  be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you,  I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. (Isaiah 41:10)

The LORD is my strength and my song, and he has become my salvation; this is my God, and I will praise him, my father’s God, and I will exalt him. (Exodus 15:2)

I can do all things through him who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:13)

No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it. (1 Corinthians 10:13  )

But the Lord stood by me and strengthened me, so that through me the message might be fully proclaimed and all the Gentiles might hear it. So I was rescued from the lion’s mouth. (2 Timothy 4:17)

The LORD is my light and my salvation;    whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life;  of whom shall I be afraid? (Psalm 27:1) 

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Day 11: A Picture of Something You Hate




I HATE hatred on god..
When i see stuff like this it makes me want to cry.. God love everyone, he created you! I dont understand how people can hate someone that created you..
...All i can do is pray for these people, seriously

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

This Is The Stuff


I was in math class today listening to my ipod when this song came on. Im sure most of you have heard it but as i was listening i was almost laughing because we all get caugh up in tiny little things that we forget that god has blessed us with LIFE! That gift conqures everything and tells me that i shouldnt get upset with that slow lady in front of me driving as im already late for school! Or when i lose my phone in my bedroom.. Its not a big deal! (:

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Bible Time (:

"this is my comfort in my afffliction, that your word has recieved me"
-psalm 119:50

"if anyone is in christ, he is a new creation the old has gone, the new has come!"
-2 corinthians 5:17

"when you go through deep waters,
i will be with you.
when you go through rivers of difficulty.
you will not drown.
when you walk through the fire of oppression.
you will not be burned up:
the flames will not consume you...
for i am the lord, your god
you are honored,
and i love you."
-isaiah 43:2-4