Grandma Irene...

I knew my grandma wasn't doing very well (she was 94) and that her days were numbered. I got a call from my grandpa saying that grandma Irene was in a coma. I took it really hard knowing how close i was to my family down in Baltimore and her of course. I cried all day Saturday knowing that she wasn't going to make it. I didn't even color Easter eggs :( My dad kept saying "maybe she'll come out of it". But i knew the truth..

Sunday morning i was getting ready for church when my parents called my into the computer room and told me grandma Irene had passed away. I was furious with god like REALLY GOD you couldn't have waited one day. I was so mad, but my mom kept telling me "how special is it that she gets to go to heaven they same day we celebrate Jesus going to heaven." i thought about it and realized god knows best, and god is good and FAITHFUL! He knew exactly what he was doing, taking her out of her misery not knowing who she was, where she was, or who her family was. I guess i was just being selfish :( But tomorrow I'm flying down to Baltimore with my dad to spend time with my family and talk about how amazing, funny, caring, and god like she really was!

She's in heaven with her husband, her children, family, and now knows who she is & I'm so blessed she was in my life and that i have another angel watching over me  :)

Matthew 5:4 “Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted.”

Isaiah 57:2 “Those who walk uprightly enter into peace; they find rest as they lie in death.”

{June 2011} The last time i saw her <3



Thank You Thursday & Happy Birthday Sissy! :)

There is SO much to be thankful for today (and every other day!)

But today i am thankful for these things..

I'm thankful for my sister CALLIE! :) It's her birthday! She is 14 today..Wow! :) I love you so much and i love your love for Jesus. It's so cool to see you trust in him for everything! I pray everyday that you continue to love him and praise his name! happy birthday sweetie!

The second thing i am thankful for is my awesome daddy! He got his dream job yesterday! He got a position downtown so he won't have to drive an hour and half to Plymouth everyday! PLUS my grandpa use to work there so its 2 generations there! He is so happy & so proud of him! God is truly faithful & amazing :)

The third thing i am thankful for is my beautiful friend Leah!! She got out of the hospital today from being in there for a month! I'm so proud of her for seeking help when she needed it and I'm so excited for what her future is going to be and for what god is going to do. i can't wait! I love you best friend! <3

Happy Thursday!

Devotion Day 1: God Is Able

I started reading this awesome devotional book! I decided that i would blog about each day that i read it & i would post a song that reminds me of the devotion of the day.

Today talks about what god can do.. or better yet, what god CAN'T do. A lot of times in life we push god on the back burner and he fades in our life. We need to remember the description that apostle Paul gives us about how great our god is and about all the things he CAN do.

"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us." -Ephesians 3:20

The song below by Francesca Battistelli reminds me of how our god loves us SO much that he will do anything for us.

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your heart

Dear LORD: Please help me and remind me that your way is always the right way! Guide me and encourage me to trust in you 100%. Amen 

Empower 2012 & God's Presence!

This weekend was wonderful! Me and my mama went to the empower conference at edinbrook church on Saturday! It was so good to feel god's presence with me the whole time!

We started out the day leaving our house at 7:30 listening to 98.5 {Christian channel}

{Empower!}



We worshiped with god...

On the left is Amanda..{Our Worship Leader} and on the right is our other singer Ana (:

Then we had an awesome lunch :)

Cuties!

I learned SO much from this retreat on now i can strengthen my relationship with god. Yesterday my mama asked me to do the dishes.. My first thought was "oh my gosh NOO" but then i quickly remembered that every little chance i get alone is a chance for me to talk to god. So i plugged in my ipod and listened to christian music & talked to him about what i was going to do better in my life. After it was done i was wishing i had more dishes to do! :)

Also, before i go, my beautiful best friend is in the hospital. Prayers for her would be AWESOME! <3

Ever Feel Weak?

I've been feeling very weak these past few days...
I'm not sure what it is..
Is it cause I'm not eating? Is it cause I'm trying to rebel & NOT eat?
Well whatever the reason is, i can't take it.

I was just reading my best friends blog and i was in tears. I'm so glad i have this blog to share my feelings 100%. It's my life saver.

But while i was reading it, i could tell she was struggling. Clearly. I knew she was and she needs help but she's not going to listen to me so whats the point. Right?

Well now i feel like a horrible friend. I should have spoke up before she got this bad.

Its all my fault.

Isn't god suppose to help those in need? :(

"He gives power to the weak, and strength to the powerless." -Isaiah 40:29

But i don't see that happening at all.

I feel like i can't bring up my own problems to my best friend..

I'm tired of crying

I'm tired of yelling

I'm tired of feeling sad

I'm tired of pretending

I'm tired of being alone

I'm tired of being angry

I'm tired of feeling crazy

I'm tired of feeling stuck

I'm tired of needing help

I'm tired of being different

I'm tired of feeling worthless

I'm tired of feeling empty inside

I'm tired of not being able to just let go

I'm tired of dreaming of a life i will never have.

You're A God Who Has All Things, And Still You Want Me.

Moving on is not about not looking back. It’s taking a glance at yesterday, and seeing how much you’ve grown since then.
Maybe I have failed more often than I have succeeded but I can pick myself up, hold my head high and move forward.
Because I’m telling you that from this great fall, I’ve come a long way and I love my life now more than ever thought possible.

I have been listening to this song the whole week and its so inspiring to me. It has helped me get through this weeks ups and down <3
Listen..

Thank you go for being with me through these ups and down in my life and thank you for giving me the tools to do so. i love how you created music so that people could connect with you better. i love you! Amen <3

Birthday Weekend & Party :)

So, yesterday was my birthday! [officially 18 WHOOP WHOOP]

I had an amazing birthday!

My beautiful best friend Leah slept over Monday night, we woke up Tuesday and my mommy made us blueberry pancakes & yummy strawberries!



After i got home from school i got BEAUTIFUL flowers from my wonderful boyfriend David and my parents (:

Aren't they gorgeous! :)

Then it was time to get ready to go to Benihana's with my family, grandparents & Leah. If you have never been there before, i highly recommend it! Its very yummy.

 

After we went home for cake and presents!

I got SO spoiled this year...

[Kindle fire, GPS, coach purse, 4 spa days, membership to LA fitness, coupon book fro my sister like one free doing laundry, foot rub..it was adorable, & my best friend made me the CUTEST blankie ever :)]

I.AM.LOVED.

& Of course my beautiful birthday cake that Leah made Me!

Isn't it cute! It's a flower :)

Faithful Shepherd, feed me
In the pastures green;
Faithful Shepherd, lead me
Where Thy steps are seen.

Hold me fast and guide me
In the narrow way;
So, with Thee beside me,
I shall never stray.

Daily bring me nearer
To the heavenly shore;
May my faith grow clearer.
May I love Thee more!

Hallow every pleasure,
Every gift and pain;
Be Thyself my Treasure.
Though none else I gain.
Amen.



I have to thank my wonderful god for being so good to me even when my life took many turns for the devil & for being the only one that was ever truly faithful to me and my recovery. I love you. Amen.

Empower 2012!

I am SO excited to go to this conference on January 7th!

 It's a conference for women [clearly stated in the title] at Edinbrook Church! They have such awesome things going on.. Like a reflection area, a prayer room, tea demo, nail painting station, massage therapist & of course connecting with our more than selfless and completely 100% faithful god!

 

Find out more info about this HERE 

Things I'm Thankful For

My Dance Girls!
[Jess, Anna, Claire, Dani]

Emmaaaa!

Claire!

My lovely love david! <3

The best friend anyone could ask for.. Leah!

My Sister and Dad

Fall!

Coach Raachel, Elly & DANCE!

My weird sister..

My mommmmyyyy

My wonderful high school :)

My favorite radio station ever!
K*102

My adorable dog (:

BABIES!

Fro-Yo
Seriously who doesnt like fro you..

Andrew!

My cousin ashley's wedding (:
 & all weddings

Ashley!

Uncle Bobby!

My amazing mema!

My amazing papa :)

flowers!

My cousin brittany (:

& Many MANY more things god as blessed me with!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

God's Lovely Work & Family Weekend (:

I went to my wonderful cabin with my dad and little sis!

We went hiking & took our cute puppy on a walk. 

At work yesterday i was sitting down with the little munchkins (I work at a daycare) waiting for there parents to come get them and one of the girls looked out side and said..

"Look miss Shauna, there's a fire storm outside!"

When i looked outside this is what i saw..

Isn't that gorgeous! (:

God is so cool!

"You made the heavens, even the highest heavens, and all their starry host, the earth and all that is on it, the seas and all that is in them. You give life to everything, and the multitudes of heaven worship you." (Nehemiah 9:6)

My Wonderful Weekend !(:

My weekend was amazing! But sunday was by far the best..

My friend montana has had a very hard year.

Her family is johovah (sp?) witnesses. Last year she decided she wanted to be christian, so she left there church. Which is awesome! But the devistating at the same time because her family kicked her out of the house. SHe is now living with her boyfriend and is starting to believe in the great god <3

SHe asked me on friday if she could come to church with me.. So of course i said yes!

& she even bought a bible! (which by the way was the cutes bible ever) Me and her went to get me a cute new bible like hers

(the one below was the one i got)

Of course no bible is complete without bible tabs (:

yes i AM that cool.

I got to see her adorable kitty.. LUNA

what an adorable name :)

Just playin!

We saw some awesome license plates..

 & we picked out her wedding dress!

Doesn't she look beautiful!

The back of it (: