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Whenever i'm really down with my eating disorder i start to think.. "wow god gave me this disorder..why god..why?" I honestly dont know why i think that way.. maybe its just me acting in the moment?
But i know that it was my choice to rely on what other poeple say about me to make me happy..
The only thing god gave me was the courage to get through it
&&
he promised me that he would be there for me the entire way and that he loves me for me,
not what other people say about me
Every.Single.Day
this is how i see my body.. & this is what i think
Some people asky.. "what made you think this way?" and "How can you be so cruel to your body that god gave you?"
Thats a really good question..
Its mostly just not being secure with who you are. & depending on what one person said about you..
Once your relationship with god weakens i feel that the devil almost distracts you telling you to destroy it
its an addiction.. like drugs
its not an easy fix
but then i hear..
"your relationship with god is good now so the eating disorder should go away right?"
well no.. i really wish it was that easy.
but each day i can feel god helping me get through breakfast.Lunch.Dinner
& each time it gets a little easier to eat
fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. (Isaiah 41:10)
No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it. (1 Corinthians 10:13 )
But i know that it was my choice to rely on what other poeple say about me to make me happy..
The only thing god gave me was the courage to get through it
&&
he promised me that he would be there for me the entire way and that he loves me for me,
not what other people say about me
guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long. (Psalm 25:5)
this is how i see my body.. & this is what i think
Some people asky.. "what made you think this way?" and "How can you be so cruel to your body that god gave you?"
Thats a really good question..
Its mostly just not being secure with who you are. & depending on what one person said about you..
Once your relationship with god weakens i feel that the devil almost distracts you telling you to destroy it
its an addiction.. like drugs
its not an easy fix
but then i hear..
"your relationship with god is good now so the eating disorder should go away right?"
well no.. i really wish it was that easy.
but each day i can feel god helping me get through breakfast.Lunch.Dinner
& each time it gets a little easier to eat
fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. (Isaiah 41:10)
The LORD is my strength and my song, and he has become my salvation; this is my God, and I will praise him, my father’s God, and I will exalt him. (Exodus 15:2)
I can do all things through him who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:13)
But the Lord stood by me and strengthened me, so that through me the message might be fully proclaimed and all the Gentiles might hear it. So I was rescued from the lion’s mouth. (2 Timothy 4:17)
The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid? (Psalm 27:1)
