Ever Feel Weak?

I've been feeling very weak these past few days...
I'm not sure what it is..
Is it cause I'm not eating? Is it cause I'm trying to rebel & NOT eat?
Well whatever the reason is, i can't take it.

I was just reading my best friends blog and i was in tears. I'm so glad i have this blog to share my feelings 100%. It's my life saver.

But while i was reading it, i could tell she was struggling. Clearly. I knew she was and she needs help but she's not going to listen to me so whats the point. Right?

Well now i feel like a horrible friend. I should have spoke up before she got this bad.

Its all my fault.

Isn't god suppose to help those in need? :(

"He gives power to the weak, and strength to the powerless." -Isaiah 40:29

But i don't see that happening at all.

I feel like i can't bring up my own problems to my best friend..

I'm tired of crying

I'm tired of yelling

I'm tired of feeling sad

I'm tired of pretending

I'm tired of being alone

I'm tired of being angry

I'm tired of feeling crazy

I'm tired of feeling stuck

I'm tired of needing help

I'm tired of being different

I'm tired of feeling worthless

I'm tired of feeling empty inside

I'm tired of not being able to just let go

I'm tired of dreaming of a life i will never have.

WILW

I'm Loving...

My silly friends!

[Marrina & Leah]

My friends tattoo! SO pretty :)

[niki & her pecock]



The daycare i work at! We made this super cute Christmas tree!

They used glitter to decorate the bulbs [such a mess!] and made cinnamon sticks!

So when people walk by they can smell the cinnamon. YUM!

My wonderful boyfriend! DAVID :)

& Thats what i'm loving <3

My Weekend With Mema & Papa :)

I LOVE weekends when my parents are gone because then i get to spend time with my grandparents.. & they spoil my sister and I.

Last night we went to The Oak Room in downtown Minneapolis!

 So yummy :)

If you have never been there before. i suggest you go, & get the wild rice soup <3

:) Have a good week everyone

&&blessings <3



You're A God Who Has All Things, And Still You Want Me.

Moving on is not about not looking back. It’s taking a glance at yesterday, and seeing how much you’ve grown since then.
Maybe I have failed more often than I have succeeded but I can pick myself up, hold my head high and move forward.
Because I’m telling you that from this great fall, I’ve come a long way and I love my life now more than ever thought possible.

I have been listening to this song the whole week and its so inspiring to me. It has helped me get through this weeks ups and down <3
Listen..

Thank you go for being with me through these ups and down in my life and thank you for giving me the tools to do so. i love how you created music so that people could connect with you better. i love you! Amen <3

Birthday Weekend & Party :)

So, yesterday was my birthday! [officially 18 WHOOP WHOOP]

I had an amazing birthday!

My beautiful best friend Leah slept over Monday night, we woke up Tuesday and my mommy made us blueberry pancakes & yummy strawberries!



After i got home from school i got BEAUTIFUL flowers from my wonderful boyfriend David and my parents (:

Aren't they gorgeous! :)

Then it was time to get ready to go to Benihana's with my family, grandparents & Leah. If you have never been there before, i highly recommend it! Its very yummy.

 

After we went home for cake and presents!

I got SO spoiled this year...

[Kindle fire, GPS, coach purse, 4 spa days, membership to LA fitness, coupon book fro my sister like one free doing laundry, foot rub..it was adorable, & my best friend made me the CUTEST blankie ever :)]

I.AM.LOVED.

& Of course my beautiful birthday cake that Leah made Me!

Isn't it cute! It's a flower :)

Faithful Shepherd, feed me
In the pastures green;
Faithful Shepherd, lead me
Where Thy steps are seen.

Hold me fast and guide me
In the narrow way;
So, with Thee beside me,
I shall never stray.

Daily bring me nearer
To the heavenly shore;
May my faith grow clearer.
May I love Thee more!

Hallow every pleasure,
Every gift and pain;
Be Thyself my Treasure.
Though none else I gain.
Amen.



I have to thank my wonderful god for being so good to me even when my life took many turns for the devil & for being the only one that was ever truly faithful to me and my recovery. I love you. Amen.

Empower 2012!

I am SO excited to go to this conference on January 7th!

 It's a conference for women [clearly stated in the title] at Edinbrook Church! They have such awesome things going on.. Like a reflection area, a prayer room, tea demo, nail painting station, massage therapist & of course connecting with our more than selfless and completely 100% faithful god!

 

Find out more info about this HERE 

Yay December!

I love December.. It's my favorite month out of the whole year..& Not just cause it''s Christmas time.. For MANY of reasons (: like...

• My birthday [December 6th]
• Christmas lights
• SNOW :)
• Christmas music
• Decorating the house
• Everyone seems so happy!
• Traditions.. Like watching charlie brown Christmas

&& SOO much more (:

Things I'm Thankful For

My Dance Girls!
[Jess, Anna, Claire, Dani]

Emmaaaa!

Claire!

My lovely love david! <3

The best friend anyone could ask for.. Leah!

My Sister and Dad

Fall!

Coach Raachel, Elly & DANCE!

My weird sister..

My mommmmyyyy

My wonderful high school :)

My favorite radio station ever!
K*102

My adorable dog (:

BABIES!

Fro-Yo
Seriously who doesnt like fro you..

Andrew!

My cousin ashley's wedding (:
 & all weddings

Ashley!

Uncle Bobby!

My amazing mema!

My amazing papa :)

flowers!

My cousin brittany (:

& Many MANY more things god as blessed me with!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Day 24: A Picture of Something You Wish You Could Change

This is an easy one..

But i can't just pick ONE thing so i'm going to pick a couple



Fist one on the list- War

If everyone followed the 10 commandments, we would have a perfect world

Number 2

I was just watching "All-American Muslum" & it makes me SO sad to see people just like you and me be hated for believing in god.

Number 3

I wish i could change my "acceptance" with the past.

My Lesson For The Rest of My Life

Today in my holocaust & genocide studies class we had a REAL survivor of the holocaust. His name..

~Fred Baron~

He begain by tellin us htat when he was only 15 years old,Hitler came to power. THe night of kristallnacht (night of broken glass) was when he was first arrested by the nazi's. When he was let out, his sister and him fled to hungary & stayed with someone who was hiding jews. In march 1944 the nazi's deproted 750,000 jews from hungary to various camps. THey were put in cattle cars (packed with people) & it took 3 days to get to the camp. 3 DAYS! Without food or water..or sunlight :(

Throughout those 3 days babies were born in the cattle cars, people died & people went crazy. When the doors were opened and a burst of light came through, it took him a few hours to adjust to the light because it had been so long. He was taken to auschwitz & saw people being yelled at, black smoke stacks, and people being KILLED! Actually saw it.. How terrible.

Over 20,000 people were killed in auschwitz each day. Including his mother and father.

While the war was still going on, a british doctor found him walking on the side of the road & brought him home and nuresed him back to health. Sorta. He still had to go to the hospital to recover. But like all things in life, everything has a plan. At he hospital he met his future wife who was also a holocaust survior and they got married! He found his sister (now in florida) & he talks to high school groups about this. I wish i could be that brave.

At the end, at he was tearing up. (I started crying too), he said "I don't talk about this just to inform.. I don't need to be reminded of this horid tragety that happened to me, i do it so that your generation will be more accepting of people, because my generation didn't"

Literally broke.my.heart.

It made me realize even more, how rich & privlaged we truely are in america. SOme of us forget that & need to be reminded.

He is the deffenition of a true hero <3

Newest Obsession..

Pinterest! Seriously.. Obsessed..

How to describe Pinterest. Well, you know how you drive to the store, buy an expensive design magazine for $7, come home, start reading it and (if you're lucky) you find a picture or two that's worth saving in an inspiration folder. All for $7. Gulp.
Well, imagine finding 25 or 50 or 100 pictures of the kitchen of your dreams. For FREE. And imagine having a place to save (Pin) them all so when you get ready to renovate that kitchen (or bathroom or laundry room) your inspiration pics are all gathered together in one place for easy reference. You'll also find links to a gazillion fabulous recipes, gardening ideas and craft projects, too. You can even add (Pin) pictures, recipes, etc from your blog or computer that you would love to share with the pinterest Community.

But pinterest is invite only right now.. So if you need an invite, then comment on here or email me!